12.22.2004
Shantih shantih shantih
Christmas.
Guess I better buy some gifts. Pack some socks. Up in Boston, its a flurry of christmasness. I get all these phone calls from old coworkers and friends and family and - everyones all buying gifts and traveling around and making plans up to the last minute.
I haven't bought a single gift.
Just got my plane ticket. I was going to sit at home and quit smoking and I think that would have been fine. Just me and the cats, maybe drive by my cousin Fionas and see how she and the new baby are doing. Haven't checked in on them since they stood me up for dinner this summer - something about a fight in a parking lot, and they just decided to go home. Oh well.
ATLs a bit quieter. They put up the white wire christmas tree at the Local. I remember last year on Christmas Eve, I had drinks with the boy next to that tree. I was driving him to the airport the next morning. Something quite romantic about it - I had this huge unrequited crush on him, felt like a kid. All thats gone. We joked about Christmas and Jewish Air and all that. Anyways, sat next to that same damn tree last night with umbrella and huggy bear and texas boy, watched them turn into old college buddies. Type of comraderie that I see in english lads who are never going to leave their home town. They've watched each other lose their baby fat, get in touch, grow old and do drugs and quit drugs and meet girls and cheat on them and marry them. Nice. Not me.
Then schmer and her biobro dropped in and we all went over to karaoke at the strip club across the street. Schmers my old friend, but.. we're not that tight. Maybe its my fault, I'm like teflon, I don't stick to life and lifelike things. We sang some songs, drank to christmas themed abuse from the DJ. He told us we were all going to be in AA together so we might as well start clapping now. Huggy bear nailed some iggy pop - real American Idol performance, holding his jacket open like whats his face in titanic for the last stanza. Earned his new nickname, huggy bear did. Umbrella left early because he's got something to live for now that Allycats back. Inspiration to us all.
I smoked too much, we all did, and drank more than I have lately and stayed out late. Woke up so scratchy and tired and red eyed that it was easy to get out of bed. I'm getting hangovers in my old age. Time to start sticking to green tea.
Been thinking about old TS lately. Rebirth, Damyata, sea change. Its the unreal city in me, its the time of year. New years is coming, and thats the real holiday for me. Hard to not think about moving again, searching again for warmer climes.
Guess I better buy some gifts. Pack some socks. Up in Boston, its a flurry of christmasness. I get all these phone calls from old coworkers and friends and family and - everyones all buying gifts and traveling around and making plans up to the last minute.
I haven't bought a single gift.
Just got my plane ticket. I was going to sit at home and quit smoking and I think that would have been fine. Just me and the cats, maybe drive by my cousin Fionas and see how she and the new baby are doing. Haven't checked in on them since they stood me up for dinner this summer - something about a fight in a parking lot, and they just decided to go home. Oh well.
ATLs a bit quieter. They put up the white wire christmas tree at the Local. I remember last year on Christmas Eve, I had drinks with the boy next to that tree. I was driving him to the airport the next morning. Something quite romantic about it - I had this huge unrequited crush on him, felt like a kid. All thats gone. We joked about Christmas and Jewish Air and all that. Anyways, sat next to that same damn tree last night with umbrella and huggy bear and texas boy, watched them turn into old college buddies. Type of comraderie that I see in english lads who are never going to leave their home town. They've watched each other lose their baby fat, get in touch, grow old and do drugs and quit drugs and meet girls and cheat on them and marry them. Nice. Not me.
Then schmer and her biobro dropped in and we all went over to karaoke at the strip club across the street. Schmers my old friend, but.. we're not that tight. Maybe its my fault, I'm like teflon, I don't stick to life and lifelike things. We sang some songs, drank to christmas themed abuse from the DJ. He told us we were all going to be in AA together so we might as well start clapping now. Huggy bear nailed some iggy pop - real American Idol performance, holding his jacket open like whats his face in titanic for the last stanza. Earned his new nickname, huggy bear did. Umbrella left early because he's got something to live for now that Allycats back. Inspiration to us all.
I smoked too much, we all did, and drank more than I have lately and stayed out late. Woke up so scratchy and tired and red eyed that it was easy to get out of bed. I'm getting hangovers in my old age. Time to start sticking to green tea.
Been thinking about old TS lately. Rebirth, Damyata, sea change. Its the unreal city in me, its the time of year. New years is coming, and thats the real holiday for me. Hard to not think about moving again, searching again for warmer climes.
